Monday, December 13, 2010

spirit

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so this last weekend was the jeju lantern festival. it was the first time that it has felt like Christmas season here, even though it's not a Christmas event.
but it was cold, and there were lights, and i was with friends. and it was beautiful.


the festival is held right on the river, down by a place called dongmun rotary. it's where the market that has the best 호떡 in jeju is (don't worry... i had some while i looked at the lights.). it's a wonderful area...

all of the lanterns are made with some sort of waxy paper and cut up water bottles, and they all have pieces of paper with stuff written. they were wonderful, and the colors were amazing.

and then there were random things like this on the water. it's really impressive, but what the earth are these kids doing??

gorgeous.

it was seriously magical. i was so happy.

there were random little lantern sculptures along the banks... these are some birds.

again... impressive, but what is that rabbit doing to the turtle? and why is it giving the finger?

this one was definitely the weirdest. it only had one thing that qualified as a lantern (the giant green ball of course), and then it had these naked statues, with the random little black one... again, what is it doing? i wish that i could talk to the artists to figure out what they were thinking. i'm sure all of these are perfectly innocent, but really? and this one was extra weird because it was all the way at the end by itself.

there was an owl! so cool.

before i went to the festival i put up my tree. it was bittersweet, because i was finally getting a tree up, but i was alone doing it. it really made me miss decorating at home :(
but sari and taylor came by halfway through and we drank wine and talked, which was really good. the tree is really pretty, if i do say so myself!

of course madeline was curious and in the way. this is the face i get constantly... she's right in the middle of a giant MEOW. i promise i have never met a louder cat... i'm glad i caught it in a picture.

and it wasn't 1 minute before this started. actually, she has been surprisingly good about not messing with the tree. i'm shocked!
*notice that she's sitting on my package from home... it's under the tree, even though it's still all just in the big box :) i put the one from the rozums under there too, but madeline tried to open it early, so i had to put it away until christmas eve.*

even though it's weird and sad not being home for Christmas this year, God has been blessing me with so many things to be joyful for right here. He is so good to me.

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Sunday, December 12, 2010

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then oh my potatoes monday is done!

(yes... i typed all of those individually.)

awe

so... today i went to the 5 day market. it's always insane there... in the best possible way. i was making my way through one of the crowded aisles when i felt a tug on my hair. i looked back to see a young korean girl (probably like 5th grade) just holding my hair and staring at it with the most amazed expression on her face. she was saying something, but obviously i couldn't understand her. it wasn't to me anyway... i'm pretty sure she was just talking to herself. her voice definitely had an interrogative intonation. i just stood there and let her marvel at my hair for a while, but then i had to go. she stayed standing there and watched me walk away. it was one of the funniest things that has happened to me here.
God bless koreans and their funny ways.

(ps: taylor and i decided today that, while some things are just cultural differences, a lot of things that koreans do/like are really just weird. that's all.)

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

hmm...

so the korean elementary school english curriculum is absolutely terrible. there's no other way to say it. (remember... i already talked about it here) but as bad as it is, it definitely provides me endless entertainment. a lot of the other english teachers try to avoid the videos as much as possible, even cutting them out all together. but i think they're hilarious, so i make my kids watch them and laugh.
one of my favorite examples of the weirdness is a 6th grade lesson titled "would you like to come to my house?" the chapter is based around thanksgiving, and it's set up to be taught right around american thanksgiving time. i won't even get into the fact that the key phrases are weird and unrelated to each other, or that they totally failed at actually teaching about thanksgiving. both of those facts are because this is what they were fixated on:

gosh this job is funny...

Thursday, December 2, 2010

christmas trees and cigarettes...

this post will get added onto this weekend (with pictures!) but i just need to say this real quick.
today i had my first disciplinary dilemma that made me sad at the middle school. but somehow the whole thing was also entertaining.... ? some of my 3rd grade middle schoolers dropped their cigarettes in class today, but i found them before they could. i had to decide what to do. it sucks not being able to reason with kids because you don't speak the same language...
the full story will come later...

Sunday, November 28, 2010

working for the weekend

*this is long. read if you want.*
so... i've never looked forward to weekends so much in my entire life. yes, weekends have always been wonderful, but i have never appreciated them the way i do here. there are a few reasons for this, and they all hold equal weight.
first of all, teaching is exhausting! i have so much more appreciation for my teachers and my friends who are teachers and all the work that they do. to put it how my best friend kellie (who is in her first year of teaching english) put it, you are basically putting on a show the whole day. as a teacher, you are expected to show up to school and be on your game, able to hold the students' attention while teaching them as much as you can in the most effective way. i could write a LOT about this, but it basically comes down to this: teaching is hard in general. teaching when the students can't understand 99% of what you say is even harder. and for that reason i so look forward to those glorious 2 days when i just get to relax.
but that is not the only reason i look forward to weekends. one of the main things i look forward to is church. i honestly get really sad when something happens that keeps me from church. it's a time where i just get to worship and be surrounded by people who love the Lord. i wish that i could describe to you the feeling i had the first time i walked into the english service at the church i've been going to... again, i could write a lot. but i'll just say this: God put me there at the perfect time, and He is so good.
and the other reason i love weekends is the fact that i never really know what is going to happen. sometimes i end up just having long days of relaxation and doing nothing (which i cherish!). but most of the time i end up doing something completely random and awesome. i guess none of it is that random... usually it's actually planned. but the thing about korea (and doing stuff with koreans) is this: you can never really plan it. it will almost always end up being way more than you signed up for, and it's great! this weekend involved one of those experiences and also lots of other fun stuff. it was a good one. (i guess i should also tell you a little about thanksgiving...)
so thursday i stayed home from school (as i said in my last post). but about a month ago, i was invited to thanksgiving dinner with fred, the man who gave me madeline. so i went to dinner, not really knowing what to expect. it ended up being a beautiful dinner with about 10 or 12 of the most random people that made me feel like a complete underachiever... it was wonderful though. everyone was really nice, the food was delicious (not thanksgiving food, but good still), and the night was just good overall. i will probably have to write a full post about fred, but for now i will just tell you that i am honored to know him. he's korea's longest living expat (he's been in korea for about 50 years and on jeju for close to 40), and he's basically a local celebrity among jeju natives and the foreigners living here. why he likes me, i don't know, but i'm glad :)
anyway... so friday nights i usually watch the office with caleb. i like it because it's when we catch up (we usually don't really see each other during the week...). this week there wasn't a new one, but we didn't realize that so we still hung out for little while. then i went and had pizza with a few friends from my orientation group, then i had dessert and good conversation with sari (my friend who lives in my building and who i do yoga/pilates with). that conversation made me a lot more excited about life. she cracks me up and makes me happy. it was good.
saturday morning i had my class that i have every other week. there are usually between 4 and 6 kids in there (this week there were 6). they are all low level middle schoolers who "volunteered" to be there (i'm pretty sure most of them are only there because they're parents made them). we ended up doing a really short lesson on summarizing then played scrabble the rest of the time... it's hard for me to force the kids to do stuff because i feel bad that they have to be in school on a saturday morning. after the class i had lunch with mrs. oh, my self-appointed korean mom. she's precious and i love her.
after lunch i had a few hours to relax before i had to meet up with nikky, caleb, and a couple other korean girls from church (caleb's church, the one i was going to before i started going to the foreigner service. i actually love the church and the people there... it's a tough decision choosing which one to go to, and it makes me sad that i can't go to both!). they were going to take us to a 사믈노리 concert, but first we stopped by the coolest hair dresser ever to pick up one of the girls who was in the middle of getting a perm (i'm telling you... random. it's fun when you have no idea what anyone is saying and then you just end up at these places... it's like a game to guess where you'll go next!). anyway, after that we went to the concert, which was awesome. it was a lot of traditional korean stuff, and it was really fun. after the concert the performers made caleb and i dance with them. (everyone else joined in if they wanted to, but we were forced because we were foreigners.) after the concert we went to get some chai at bagdad, an indian restaurant really close to my apartment. caleb left early, and it was just me and the 3 koreans (nikky was the only one who speaks english). but even with the language barrier, it was still really fun being out with the girls and talking about boys and life. i taught them MASH (so funny... they're all 28-30 and they loved it), and we just talked and laughed at how we couldn't understand each other. then afterwards they wanted to give me a ride back ("dangerous because you are beautiful!" haha... it's really not dangerous at all!), so i was following them to what i thought would be the car. instead we ended up at a stand getting fried octopus balls. yep... this is korea, and that is what they eat. then we went to the car and they drove me the 2 minutes to my apartment, where we sat in the car and ate leftover kimbap from dinner. it was so fun being with a group of girls just hanging out and laughing and eating midnight snacks... it was just what i needed. they blessed me more than they will probably ever know.
so after a really fun, late night i went to church this morning, where the message was so simple yet so profound and great (it was about loving and following Jesus, out of John 21:15-22).
after church i had to rush out to catch a ride with alpha down to seogwipo to go to the jeju united finals match! it was cold, but it was so fun, and they won! it was definitely very exciting. after the game a group of us got some food then caught the bus back home, where i came in, put on sweats, and collapsed with my computer on my lap.
and that brings me here... writing this long post while i put off planning my winter camp lessons. dang.
that was really long... sorry. but that's what i've been up to.
i promise i go back and forth in my head every couple minutes (not exaggerating!) between happiness about being here and sadness about missing home. it is weekends like this and the moments i've had that really add to the happiness... and i thank God for that!
He is good to me.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

thankful

*warning: this is a long and rambly thought-dump. if you want to skip to the end, go for it.*

today i stayed home from school with a migraine. honestly, i probably could have gone and been just fine. yesterday it came in the afternoon, and i laid in my office with my head on my desk feeling sorry for myself. then this morning when i woke up i had a little headache, so i called in because i didn't want to be at school feeling miserable again. i can fight through not being able to breathe, stomachaches, body pain, and most other things. but when it comes to headaches, i'm a giant baby. pair that with a little bit of nausea, and it's just not worth it to me. so i've had a long day of lying in bed, watching movies and cuddling with madeline. it's been a much needed rest.

today is also thanksgiving. at the middle school i've been teaching about thanksgiving this week, and i've ended the lesson with the most important part: it means it's now christmas season! my ct said she can tell i love christmas season just because of how happy i looked when i was talking about it. i've been going back and forth about christmas season this year. i'm definitely forcing it on my middle schoolers... we're decorating the room and spending all of december on christmas stuff. i'm pretty excited. i have a christmas tree and decorations for my apartment... so that should be good. but it's just not the same. i would never expect it to be... they just don't do christmas here like we do at home. it just puts a lot more pressure on me to make it exciting.

i'm not sure if it's because the holidays are coming up, or because i'm just exhausted, or just because i have a lot of thinking time... but i've been really second guessing everything in my life. i do this a lot... i've changed my mind so many times. and every time i always think that God is laying something on my heart. but i'm starting to realize that i really think i'm just acting on my feelings most of the time. and i know that God gives us desires, but what if i don't even know what my desires are? before i came to korea, i was planning on staying 2 years (at least). financially, it makes the most sense to pay off most of my loans and have a lot more freedom to do what i really want (live other places). as of right now, that's still the plan. but in all my thinking lately, i've been second guessing that plan. because now i don't know what my desires are. i miss everyone at home more than i ever thought possible. i knew that i would miss people... because i love you all so much. of course i knew that i would miss you and it would be hard at times. but it's more than just missing people and things. it's this desperate desire to be surrounded by the people i love, to be in the presence of those people who mean more to me than anyone, and who i know love me so deeply. i'm wondering why i ever wanted to leave... why i was so desperate to get out... why i thought i was missing something, when everything i needed was right there.
and then i remember the restlessness i felt right before i left. i remember the last year and a half, wanting just to get out, wondering why anyone would want to stay when they could leave and experience a whole different world. i remember why i came, and how it felt. and i'm glad i'm here. i really am. i know that i will not regret this. i don't regret it.
i'm just not so sure if this is what i want the rest of my life to be like. i'm wondering... what is so wrong with just visiting places? is it really impossible to make a difference in the world while living close to the people i love? is getting my loans paid off quickly really worth being away from everyone? i don't know... i don't even know how i'll feel in a couple hours, let alone the 8 months i have left before i have to decide whether i will sign on for a second year! and so, in the midst of all this wondering and feeling sorry for myself... i will go out, have my first thanksgiving dinner away from home, and carry on with life. because that is what i do.
so if you've read all this... sorry. sorry for the rambling and the whining and the dumping. just know that i really am ok.

and i am thankful. i am thankful for the opportunity i have to be here, to be experiencing something new, to be challenged, to meet new people, to grow closer to God in a completely different way. i am thankful for my amazing family and friends, who i miss so much but who i know will be there when i get back.
i am thankful for my life. i truly am blessed, no matter how much i tend to forget it.
praise God for that.