rough...

today was a rough day. it wasn't a bad day... just a rough one.

first of all, we found some baby kittens (like maybe a week old, but more likely a few days) on the road on the way to musana. leah asked obama where their mom was and he told her that the owner had "refused them." so we took them to musana, and i tried to feed them some milk. i don't expect them to live through the night, but at least they are in relative comfort and safety, away from the mean kids on the street.

even though that was sad, the main reason today was so rough was because it's the first day of holiday. that means that the kids parents/guardians came and got them to go home. the ones leaving were so excited, and it was bittersweet to see them go. i was excited for them, but sad because i'll be gone before they get back. but my heart broke for the kids who stayed behind. these are the kids whose parents are dead, who watch their friends leaving and know that they don't get to go and exactly why. these kids are such little troopers, though. i can't even imagine all that they've been through, and yet they almost always have smiles on their faces and are so excited about life. selfishly, i'm glad they're staying because that means i get to spend more time with them (i've fallen more and more in love with them every single day). but i wish that they got to leave... that they had families to go home to. my prayer is that they know how much they are loved, because they are.

i've been struggling and praying and thinking about God's love lately, and what it means to show His love, and what His love means for these kids and the people who have nothing. it's a tough subject.

please pray for the kids, that they will know how much they are loved, by God and the people He has placed in their lives. and for the ones who went home, that they will have a good, safe, healthy holiday. and pray for me, that i will be able to show His love in the best way possible, for energy, for my project and finding someone to make the books for a price that i can afford, and for confidence in situations that arise.

thanks and i love you all!