it's weird... i guess i haven't really felt like i've had all that much to say. i still don't really. i feel like i've been so busy but really i haven't. i only work a few days a week (and the family i work for is gone until the 9th, so i've already had a week off and i have another week and a few days...). it's finally feeling like summer. i just finished my last tefl unit (praise God!), and i genuinely have nothing to do. it's a weird feeling. it's funny how all the times when i am busy and don't have a lot of down time, i wish that i just had nothing to do. but then when i actually don't have anything to do, i am bored. i guess now's the time to catch up on my fun reading! my life is in a weird place right now... i'm going to write about it because i can (and i have nothing else that is begging for my time). feel free to not read... this could get wordy.
stuff with korea is *kinda* coming together. i got all my visa documents in at the last possible second (seriously... i got them in at like 3 in the afternoon a couple weeks ago and the next morning i had an email from my recruiter saying that all the positions were filled and if anyone hadn't gotten them in by 5 they were not guaranteed a spot!) i'm still waiting on the next documents and to find out where i will be placed. i won't be surprised if i have about 2 weeks to book a flight and get everything ready by the time i find out... but it's okay. it's all in God's hands.
that's another thing that's been going on. really, i guess it's something that hasn't been going on. even with all my free time, i have somehow managed to completely stop spending time with God. it's not like it has been before, where i really just don't see Him working or i don't desire to spend time with Him. it's really been more like... i just haven't really thought about it. i've just been waking up and going along with my days without even thinking about the fact that i hadn't touched my Bible or talked to Him in i don't even know how long. it's weird though because i've still been trusting Him. i've still known that He's there and He's in control. i've still been telling myself and everyone else that, and truly believing it. it's just my side of the relationship that i've been failing at. that makes me sad. this morning it really hit me and i had some good time with Him. i didn't have any amazing revelations or get any sudden peace or understanding about life... it was just nice to be with Him. i've really missed that. it's something that i'm looking forward to getting back into. i think sometimes life just gets in the way... and it's not even that it's so overwhelming or busy... it's just that it's all i think about. i'm just thinking about different things in my life all the time, and when i want to escape i turn to some mindless book or show and forget about what's going on for a little bit. i don't think that's too uncommon... but i don't like it.
anyway... there's that.
it's funny because really there are so many things lately that i've seen God doing that i've been getting so excited about! probably one of the biggest is what's going on with my favorite little brother. he's doing so well in uganda, and it's so exciting to read and see and hear about what God is doing through him... i can't wait to visit and see firsthand! that's another thing... i get to go to uganda! i guess it's not technically 100% for sure (more like 95 i would say...), but i'm most likely going with my mom at the very end of this month. i am so excited! i miss my brother and i can't wait to see him and see his kids and his life!
then pretty much right after that i'll be leaving for korea... which i am also incredibly excited about. it's funny because i'm really excited, but i'm still not in any rush. i think it's because i know that i'll be there for a long time... there's really no need for me to be in any hurry to get there. i know that i'm going to miss home, so i'm trying to take advantage of the time i have left here. but i am stoked. i think it'll get even more exciting and real once i know where i'm going and exactly when... that will be wonderful.
speaking of wonderful... it hit me the other day that i only have like 2-3 more weeks with my girls once i factor in the time until they get back and the time i'll leave for uganda! that's really sad... i love them. i'm going to miss them. stinkin precious little peanuts.
okay... i need to stop writing this now.
praise God for being so good... and for everything He's done and is doing in my life and the lives of the people i love.
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